I've been there Mama. You are not alone. And no, Post Partum Depression does not mean you are a bad mother!
In fact, if you are reading this is means that you have recognized a vulnerability in yourself and are seeking help and answers. THAT skill is found in great mamas! I experienced Post Partum Depression after my first child and was told by a healthcare provider that I was upset because "maybe you really don't want to have the vocation of mother and that's why your sad." I'm sure there are many of you who have experienced less than helpful responses from healthcare providers, friends, or family. Also, many times people mean well but just don't what what to say. Thankfully, my husband had the medical knowledge to help me find a provider who knew what to do and could help me by starting not just with medication but looking at my hormones as well. The one thing I didn't have was a therapist who had studies PPD and had a specific treatment method to address it. So, I created the help for others that I wished I had. I provide individual therapy for Post Partum Depression/Anxiety/Adjustment using a 10-14 session model. This model is heavy on psychoeducation and includes session notes, PowerPoint, and minimal homework to implement the skills learned. Of course, you are not limited to 10-14 session. Often, our post partum period can bring up things we have pushed away for years and provides the gift of time to process these issues as we make the transition into motherhood. If, while reading this, you realize you need help NOW and feel like hurting yourself and/or baby, please call 911 or go to your nearest hospital emergency room. It happens ,and I can all but guarantee that you are not the first person an emergency provider has seen in your current crisis. Again, asking for help is a sign of your strength and goodness! You are not a bad person or bad mother. You are someone who deserves help and understanding. While it might not seem like it right now, if you reach out for help, it will get better but you need to deal with this current crisis first and then look to outpatient counseling on the other side. |